Love for my Daughter

The Love for my daughter I know it is there,
Somewhere deep in my heart,

How do I find it and express it to her,
How it hurts my soul, to know that I love her so.

I smile back but what does it mean,
There is love there,

Some days I feel it and can see it right there,
a hug, a kiss, a brush of her hair.

I know it will come, of course it is already there,
The love for my daughter I know it is near.

She is a little girl lost in her mind,
worries that only she knows.

Let me in and help you I whisper
I do love you so, I do, I do.

The Love for my Daughter
Will be there for ever and ever.

Sixth Sense

It amazes me – how do they do it! kids they must have a sixth sense! "What we having for tea mum – I want Sausages" is the demand and I haven't even said anything to them and yes – that's is what I had planned for tonight!

 

 

help - self help - help!

my self help career site which I joined is asking in today's top tips why or what happens if I don't make that career shift - well eerrr hello – just 4 small things for now - debt, no house, no food, no car.  These are all probably extremes but could be reality so I am trying as I said before to desperately to become optimistic.

I have started to carry around a little note book which has a page and half full of ideas for new careers – including:

Blogger – doing but not making any money
Author – I may have an idea
Mystery Shopper – would love to do
Social Worker – don’t have the qualifications
Franchiser – don’t know where to start
Ebay shop – haven’t got the room
Community Organiser for the Big Society – do I want to work with this government?
Parish Councillor – tempting
Foster Carer – do I have enough to cope with?
Volunteer – could we afford to live?
Youth Work – I have some experience – [7 years as Brown Owl]

Any thoughts answers on a comment post back to me please

I can't go backwards

So I have decided to start from where my head is now.  The reality is that I will be losing my job in the not so distant future - like in 6 months, and yes like all the other half a million of us who work in the public sector - we will have to find new jobs, new skills.  I know this in realistic terms seems quite a way off and whilst I was trying to explain to my husband about how this was the most fantastic opportunity for me to explore what I wanted to do, in one sentance [bless his cotton socks] he had shot me down -

"but haven't you got the career you always wanted"

refering to the two most wonderful little darlings our soon to be adopted children, yes I had been waiting for the tiny patter of feet, hands and cries of mummy, mummy, mummy, but should I feel ashamed for wanting an adult life too?

Us as a family of four have come a long way in the last 14 months - yes that is as long as I have been a mummy,  for the sake of the privacy of the children I will refer to my daughter as Beauty and my son as Horatio, before there were just the two of us Mr & Mrs mummyrella with Valentine the pooch and Sweetie & Beau Beau the cats and on 8th August 2009 we found that we had become parents to a 14 month boy and a 28 month girl. 

Looking back and saying we were parents at that stage for us was an alien concept, it was quite scary to think that we were suddenly responsible for these two babes and life was never to be the same.